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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
h a p p y.

Okay, since I'm feeling all lost and out of sorts again today, I shall once again try to define something. Somebody once told me that I'm the type of person who likes to give definitions or labels to things. So in connection to my mind-explorations for today, I shall now try to define my predicament.

Twenty-one years old. That's how old I am right now. That's the number of years that I have spent on this earth, doing I'm not quite sure what. Although, I've always had this belief (and I'm not alone in this thinking) that people are put on this planet for a purpose. The struggle arises in trying to find that purpose, that meaning. The original concept of why I am here in the first place. But finding your purpose is not easy. It's mighty damn gruelling actually. But based on the books I've read, and movies I've seen, people I've talked to and things I've observed, one could better (if not easily) find their true life's purpose, once they've discovered what makes them HAPPY.

Happy in the sense that, whenever you do that thing, or have that thing, or see that thing, everything is alright. You feel that everything is just where it should be and even if the situation is hard, it still feels easy. These are the things that you breeze through, something you could do even with your eyes closed or hands tied. Something that makes your heart skip a beat. Something that makes you wide-crazy-googly-eyed. Something that you most definitely sure of.

My point here is that, in order to get out of this limbo of confusion and wandering, I need to find what makes me happy. Find it, and stick to it. I need to search for that all-important thing and wrap my days around it. Only then can I improve to the best of my potential. Only then can I truly affect the lives of people - something that I have always believed I should do. Only then can I be contented. Only then will I be at peace.

Thursday, October 01, 2009
Isang Panawagan

Isang Panawagan
sa panulat ni A.C.A.


Bagyong dumaan ay nag-iwan ng bakas
ng kanyang hagupit, lupit at lakas

Sa sandaling panahon lahat ay huminto
nagulat, naiyak, natakot at nanlumo

Tunay na kayrami mga taong nagdurusa
nawalan ng tirahan, kabuhayan, kapamilya

Sisikaping tumayo at mabuhay muli
para sa sarili, sa angkan, sa lahi

Ngunit mahirap magsimula sa wala
mula sa impyernong kalamidad ang may sala

Kaya’t ito’y panawagan sa lahat ng nakatindig
Tayo’y kumilos at magkapit-bisig

Sadyang kayrami ng dapat ayusin
Kalianga’y aksyon, puso at panalangin

Kung hindi kumikilos ang nasa itaas
Tumingin sa sarili’t hanapin ang lunas

Ang unos na dumaan ay maaaring maulit
Kaya’t pahalagahan ang bawat saglit

Mga kapatid ay ating akayin
Bago umihip muli ang hangin

Unahan ang tubig na muli’y babagsak
Isilong ang mga sa hirap nasasadlak

Sa ating tatag ay walang titinag
Masisilayang muli ang mahal na liwanag


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Kwento sa likod ng tula: Nalulungkot ako at hindi ako personal na makapunta sa mga relief operations kaya't minabuti kong isulat na lang ang aking mga saloobin. Huwag niyo sanang tawanan ang pananagalog ko. (o ang pagtatangka) Naramdaman ko lang na mas mainam ito para sa pagkakataong ito. :)