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Friday, April 28, 2006

"lies lies lies..."
It's so easy to lie. It doesn't take much effort to say things that aren't true. But we all know that it is not right. But what if, the lies made were said to be for the benefit of another? Or in short, does the reason for the lying count for anything?. . . Eto pa ah, some people are such experts at the "art" of deception. Sometimes, you can't even spot the difference between someone who's telling a lie and someone who's telling the truth.. How can we tell?.. Another thing, once you've seen or known that a person has lied before, it leaves an ugly lasting impression on that person. How do we know that they aren't going to lie again?.. How do we put our trust back?.. Hmm.. Ewan. Bigla lang napasok sa utak ko ang about lies... hehehe.. Kayo na bahala sumagot sa mga tanong ko. =)


"pressured"
Why do I feel so pressured lately?.. Is it because of my nearing bday? or lpep? or the other things i have to attend?.. haha.. Probably. But other than that, I am very much bothered right now. All of a sudden, I find myself waking up in the middle of the early morning at around 2-4 am... It's kinda freakin me out. Maybe because of that Emily Rose movie.. Tama ba? Or ibang movie b un? hehehe.. Considering pa na I have to get lots of sleep especially now that I have proven to myself that tall people are those that get enough sleep! Hahahahaha...... tawa pa... hahahahahaha... Goodluck na lang gurl. hihi. =P . . . pero back to my sleepless nights. nakakairita kasi eh... grrrr... baka siguro because of the heat? Kaya naiistorbo ang tulog ko? haha.. Or may nagtetext kasi?.. Madalas naman when I wake up, may txts sa cel ko.. hahaha.. May kuneksyon ba yon? wala naman ata. hehe..

haaaaaay. . . . im feeling pressured kahit bakasyon. dami din palang gagawin. :P


"echos"
finally. after the long wait. i get to see you again. pero parang wala lang naman sayo. ngek. hahaha... at eto pa ah. kasama mo na naman si *toooot*.. naku naku naku. ehem. ehem. natawa na lang ako. with matching raised eyebrow ah. jwk. =P
regarding the other one naman. ayun. wala naman masyadong ikukuwento. hehe.. wla talaga.

Friday, April 21, 2006
On your M A R K S , ready, set, GO!

It’s been so long since my last post here. And check it out, I even had my bestfriend change the layout again. . . It’s not all pink anymore! Haha…

I actually made a very long entry about my summer experience in Baguio last Holy Week but due to circumstances I can’t quite remember I wan’t able to post it. Tsk tsk. . .

Kaya brace yourselves sa umaatikabong kwentuhan!. . . pasensya na. Warning mahaba ito. =p

** Note: Spot all 5 mark’s in my post. Shet andami pala nila sa mundo. Hehehehe… **
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But before Baguio I was able to go to the overnight swimming thingie with a few of my DLA batchmates. (for details please check maple’s blog.hehe) I wasn’t really supposed to go but I ended up going anyway. It was one of those miraculous last minute escapes that I was so good at. But despite the fun part, there were a lot of threats because my parents actually didn’t want me to spend the night there. Anyway, another reason was because my aunt suddenly announced that we were to go to Baguio the next day!.. Huwaaaaat. But I still went to the overnight thingie and I was able to rush and push myself into Baguio too. But the price was not cheap. Why? . .Because it cost me my sun fone. Huhuhuhu.. (flashback ng memories with sun cel) It was stolen while we were on our way to meet our Baguio-mates.. So be careful when commuting kids. But let it be said that it was the very first time that I lost a fone. Chosko! 3310 na nga lang, pinag-interesan pa!.. But thank God di kinuha yung Sony Ericsson.. huhuhu. . . Eto pa, my brother also got his cellpfone stolen the very next day. How? .. While we were sleeping!!! Iniwan kasi nilang bukas yung bintana kaya ayun, pagkagising ni Kuya, nasungkit na ang cell, relo at pati bracelet nya.. grabe nmn!.. mas ako pa ata yung nalungkot sa mga nangyayari!… tsk tsk.. But don’t get me wrong, Baguio was super fun ah!.. Si Wilson nga ay nagkaroon pa ng buddies with our cousin Eugene Mark (Mark number 1) hehehe.. Repression kicked in again. =P Habang pauwi, nakakatawa kaming magkakapatid kasi mukha na naman kaming mga probinsyanong napadpad sa Maynila. Kumpleto kasi kami with big bags at mga walis na pasalubong ni Tita kina Mama from Baguio. And don’t forget the pambahay outfit ng kuya ko! Hahaha.. Nag-commute kami pauwi from Monumento at nagtawanan na lang sa mga nangyari(sarado pa pala ang LRT).

And now I am Sun-less. Hehehe.. please spread the word na lang. =P *sob*

After some reflecting, medyo nainterpret ko pa nga siya as a sign. . . Pero. . . ewan.

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April 17 was course card day!.. My grades turned out to be quite good! Akalain mong naka-quatro pa ako sa Genpsyc.. I-rewind naten dun sa magical finals na na-conjure up ko within 30 minutes!..(I wud lyk to thank Hannah Riñoza for the alarm and support) hehehehe. . . Mabuhay ang resulta ng Lab na medyo ehem.. Salamat sa group effort tuiwng Lab. . . Nabuhay din naman ang INTROSO grade ko na kinatatakutan ko. Yehey. Thank you papa God.

Monday was also a day of bonding with Darren and Mark Clemente(mark number 2).. Maple was there pero when she left, dun nag-start ang grilling. Harharhar. . . There were a lot of realizations and revelations… whew! Ang saya saya. Gusto ko talaga magkaroon ng talk show someday! Hahahaha. . .
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Pero wag ka, hindi nagpahuli ang Tuesday dahil revelations still kicked their way in. Doon ko din narealize na napakasaya magkaroon ng Magic Sing! Harharhar.. Salamat din sa pagbabake ng chocolate cake ng friend naming.

Nagpunta ako sa bdash ni Majoy nung April 19(Wednesday) at napadamay pa ako sa 18 shots pero sympre I didn’t drink it. Hehehe.. Ang kulit ni ate natz dahil feeling nya overdressed daw siya. Ako naman ay kabaligtaran ng problema. Haha.. GMG is sooooo fun! Ang kukulit at ang sasaya ng mga tao. Promise. (plugging ito, join na!!!)

Pero before that I went to Jave’s para magpractice ng band. Harhar.. Though di naman ako actually tutugtog sa gig day. During rehersals syempre dapat may vocalist diba? Hehe.. Galing nila ni MarkLugtu(mark number 3) tumugtog.

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Kahapon ay nadama ko naman ang pagiging isang myembro ng Teatro Batingaw! Ito nga pala ay grupo ng mga talentadong nilalang sa UP Manila. Graduation kasi ni Kuya Den2x na nakilala ko thru Maple at kami ay inimbitahan niya sa isang munting salu-salo. Tumungo muna kami sa Unit nila at doon nanuod ng Moments of Love sa DVD. Maganda ang pelikulang ito kaya lang, medyo palpak talaga kapag pirated. Hehehe.. Kalahati halos ng movie, wala kaming marinig!..hahaha.. Tapos kasama ang mga Batingawers kami ay tumulak ng Mandaluyong tungo sa tahanan ni Kuya Jonalden Ferrer na cumlaude! Sosyal!.. hehehehe. . . Mababait ang mga Batingaw people. Si Sha ay sweet. Si Kuya Albert ay interesting. Si Ariane Diane ay kapangalan ko. Si Mark (mark number 4) na hinatid kami sa bus pauwi ay mabait at makwela din.. Yehey!!!

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Malapit na pala ang Mayo. Malapit na ang birthday naming ni Diana! Hahaha.. Malapit na ang LPEP. Paalala kay Mark Biong(Mark number 5), may 8 ang simula ng LPEP. Hehehe. . . may trabaho na ako dun ayon kay Clarence! Yehey.

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Di na nga pala tuloy ang summer job ko. Sayang. Pero kung iisipin, parang buti na rin dahil madami din pala akong gagawin this summer. I think. Hehehehe. . .


PS: nahanap nyo ba ang lahat ng mga Mark sa kwento ko? =P

Monday, April 10, 2006
im a brave brave gurl.


______________________maple and me.. haha.______________________
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yesterday i did the unthinkable...

i finally said the unspeakable...

who would have ever thought that i would get the guts to spill it out. . .

in just a blink of an eye...

i said it.

i actually did.

gosh.

but now, only God knows what's gonna happen..

im just thankful we're good friends.. hehehe..

that's a lot of load off my chest ah!. . .

years worth of secrecy. :P

im a brave brave gurl. =P

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pero sa isang banda ng buhay. . .

im very scared. . .

scared to fall...

scared to get hurt. . .

scared. . .

ayun.

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Sunday, April 09, 2006
ang gulo ko! haha

it's palm sunday!.. the beginning of holy week.. what are you gonna do?

are you going to the beach and have fun?

or stay home, go to church and reflect?

ako?

errrm...

bahay!... hehehehe.. as usual!

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kung masaya ka sa nangyayari, hayaan mo lang. wala namang masama kung gagawin mo ang ikaliligaya mo diba?... pero wag mong kalimutang magmasid at mag-ingat. baka kasi malaglag ka sa bangin na matagal mo nang iniiwasan. hindi mo kasi alam yung nasa baba. baka mga tinik o kaya matutulis na bato lang. ouch! masakit ata yun noh!.. mahirap na. pero masaya ang pakiramdam. nakangiti ka habang kumakanta sa iyong sarili. masarap maglakad-lakad.. masaya. . .pero nakakatakot kasi eh. mahirap na talaga. hahahaha... ingat ingat lng!

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pero awat muna!...

may nagbabalik. ano ito?! hahahaha.... =P
irreveal ko na ang juicy tidbit sa kanya. hahahaha...
yikes!... naku! god help me nlng. bahala na....

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shet! bigla tuloy lumabo... hala ka. . . . . .

Friday, April 07, 2006
o ayan, mahaba-haba na ito..

Due to insistent public demand, I will try and attempt to make a blog entry which is somehow unlike the previous ones which only seem like "teasers". . .

hmmm...

ok...

go.


So it's already the start of my summer break. All my exams are finally over.Which means... No more sleepless nights trying to cram(though sometimes i do this an hour b4 the exam), no more trying to squueze my brain for worthwhile essays and book reports. No more trying to stop time because I'm going to be late for class. No more reading tons of photocopied pages in hopes of understanding them. In short, no more classes! Of course, this won't be for too long because around May22, classes will start again. But until then, I'm stuck at home.. damn.. What the heck am I supposed to do until then?. . . Without a landline and without baon money, will I be just a social outcast and hibernate at home??? waaaaaah!... scary.

oh wait! i remembered something. . . may 4. hehehe. . .

anyways..

bulleted chuva:

* must finish reading memoirs. (soli ko sau ate kizia sa pasukan. heehee)
* must not gain evil weight due to bum-ness at home
* must find worthwhile things to do!(vague)
* must clean my cabinet. . again. after so many attempts.haha
* must clean my old white sneakers or
* must buy a new pair.hehe
* must compose a song =)
* must play sumtym with old bandmates
* must go swimming at least once
* must find way to return long lost landline to avoid solitary torture
* must visit friends' houses if desperately bored.. hehe
* must practice guitar
* must sing once in a while (asa..hehe)
* must do sit-ups? bwahahahahaha.. (mas lalong asa!)
* must think of more fun stuff to do. . . (ngek.hehe)

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yesterday:
had my exam for lab. damn. cramming at its finest. didn't study at ol. gud thing it was only 35 items. gud thing i didn't study after all. haha.. ate lunch wid toni. got my grade for PE (swimming)... DAMN! I GOT A 3.5 . .(read my past blogs to realize why im thankful.)..then went with markb(mosh). to RP. watched Ice Age(agen!), and helped him buy his cowboy hat(huwwwat?!).. then I went to mini stop to meet up with Maple(bff), Mhakie(long-lost) and Darren(neighbor).. thanx for the ice cream. then we went to Darren's for some quality U.B.E (ultim8 bonding xperiens).. jokes, brain-teasers, tv, pics.. nyc tym! i miss them (asan nb cla keren, matyu etc?).. then as i went home. i had nothing to do.. tv and txt nlng til late.. hehehe..

today:
went to school! had to finish genpsyc project eh. cool brain-hat!sosyal. went to UM with joyce(grupm8) to print stuff.then saw toni and markb there..(ah ehh, ehem!).. then cao. then mcdo wid ate clrnce.. then genpsyc essay with hannah and keisha.. then kaadikan sa cybernook at heto ako ngayon,nagttayp. . . .(type, type, type...)

tomorrow:
saan nmn kaya ako bukas?. . . maple???! yuhooooo... hehehe.

Monday, April 03, 2006
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i wonder why my bestfriend's so excited about this blog. . . hehehe.

i really don't know how to explain it yet.

to sum things up. .

Saturday,April1, 2006 was a very interesting day.

place, G4..

eto yung gist:

may ring,may rose, at may nakasalubong na ex on the side. . .

o diba, un pa lang interesting na. . . hehehe.

ang masasabi ko lang is "baket" at "thank you". . .

avoid complications ika nga.

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pero nabwisit talaga ako kagabi.. bukod sa may killer book report pa akong dapat tapusin i-cram ay may nakakairita pang humirit bago matapos ang gabi. . .
hello?! di ka rin nmn masyadong feelingero noh?..haha.. basta. nakaka-inis.
lasing ka lang ata talaga. pero nakakabwisit kc eh. grrrrrrrr. . .
pero may nagtext saken kahapon.nagbabalik mula sa bakasyon. .
pero grr pa rin.